August 6, 2009

Inside feelings

Have you ever had this feeling where you are so self-motivated to jump in your career, and you are so driven to making it that you do not know what to do? Have you ever got to the point that you want to scream because you can visualize your dream for the future but it seems so far away? Seem like your dream career is around the corner, but it's like a wall blocking you and your dream from meeting. Like you the only one that feels the motivation, and you think people around you feel the same way because the feelings is so high, but then others tell you, " You have imaginations like a child", but you push pass what people have to say.

^This is my feelings right now. I am so self-motivated that I am not slowing down or slacking off no more. I did it for years. I am not where I want to be at in life right now. I have some setbacks, down falls, and discouragement, but no longer will I let them feelings way down on me any longer. I have this burning fire in me right now that I can see my dream. God said just have faith as a mustard seed and my faith is bigger than a mustard seed. I feel myself getting back in that mind frame where, I GOT TO MAKE IT. No ifs, ands, and buts, but JUST DO IT. I want so much for me and my child that I can not let my past bring me down. Everything I went through can not bring me down, but make me stronger. I will succeed and God said,"If I be for you, who in the world can be against you". And I am walking on what God said. He will bring me out. God is my rock, who shall I be afraid of. Whats for me, it is for me, and no one can take it away or stop it but God. When I was down and out He was there. God said he will never leave me or nor forsake me and I believe him. I love the Lord, he heard my cries so that's why I would never stop loving him.

Be Encourage

When everything seem so far, and the next step bring fear,
Know that your future is very near.
You may have your worries and you may have your doubts,
But lean unto God, for he shall bring you out.
With all your might,
Take comfort with verry little sight.
Count on your self,
Because when it's said and done,
You the only one left.
Take joy for today,
And Caution for tomorrow,
Be careful for the next day,
Don't let it bring you sorrow.
Have confidence on what you do,
And account for what you say,
Be aware not to offend that person,
Standing in your face.
Be encourage and keep stepping,
Let go of your fears,
And release them hard long tears.
Know that everything will be alright,
But know this one thing,
You not gonna get to your dream without a fight.

August 5, 2009


What makes a person? What makes you, who you are? Is it your skin completion or is it the way you style your hair? Some woman feels putting on make-up make a person beautiful. I like make-up, but it do not defines me as a beautiful woman. Make-up only adds to my beauty. Just like putting on some fancy earrings, wearing my hair a certain way enlarges my beauty. The outfit I pick out to wear with the heels to match only enlighten my personality and create my style. I love how big and brown my eyes is and how long my eyes lashes curls. I love my skin completion as the way it is; dark brown and smooth. I love my size standing 5'2 weighing 130 with a pug in my stomach. All my features I listed is what makes me who I am, beautiful. Make-up, jewelry, clothes, and shoes adds to my beauty. So the question still stands, What make you, who you are?

July 27, 2009

Single Parents

A lot of us like to complain abut being a single parent. Everyone is to blame for raising a child or children by yourself, and we do not move forward and take on the responsibility of being a single parent. Like who walks around saying, "I want to raise a child by myself", really who says that. Like me and everybody else, I did not ask to be a single mom at the age of 23. I had a Husband who loved his child, who loved being a daddy, but that gift; opportunity was taking away Jan. 1, 2009, 3 hours into the New Years, he was killed. I didn't ask to live the life of a single parent and my 2 year old son didn't ask to be fatherless. So, what I had to do was put my complaints and feelings aside and take care my son. Oh, and lets not talk about my son father's side of the family; they don't even bother to stay in touch. Through the 7 months with the death of my late husband I learn to put away my wants and think about me and my child needs. I work hard everyday to be the mother and father which is not easy. I wiped the tears away and stop complaining about being a single parent. I I can do it why are there are still people complaining and not being both parents. At the end of the day you are still a single parent until God send your other half your way.


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